What should I be spending my time on? That is the question.
What is important?
What is worth my time?
What is worth HIS time?
These are the questions running through my mind.
Since my “retirement” I have really struggled trying to find our routine and the pace of our new home structure. I know without a single reservation that we are doing exactly what we are supposed to do, but I have been struggling with just how that s supposed to look.
I want our home to be happy, warm, cozy, and peaceful. For the most part, life has been much more so since my unemployment. Just having mom not ready to pull her hair out EVERY moment of the day really helps. Still with all the changes we don’t have it all quite figured out yet.
I went for a run yesterday morning, and was able to just spend some time alone with God and my own mind. I was praying about how to fix this very problem. God really impressed on me to go on another “frivolous” fast.
The last time I went on a frivolous fast, I fasted strictly from frivolous internet use. This time I am going to expand it to any frivolous wastes of the precious time I am granted each day.
Of course, the first thing that comes to mind is Facebook and my goofy Facebook games. I do enjoy them, and there is truly nothing wrong with them. The question is, what am I NOT doing because I am busy harvesting fake crops? I do love the perfect squares that are bloom perfectly and symmetrically! But, really, my fake gardening squares accomplish nothing except for satisfying my OCD tendencies.
God has been really working me over in all my entertainment choices. I recently started a Kelly Mintor study named Nehemiah. I only have made it to one of the video sessions, but I know that I was appointed to be there. The one statement that has run over and over and over in my mind is,
“If it put my Jesus on the cross, then it is not funny.”
UGH. Straight to my heart. How much crass humor do I excuse because it is just funny? I love to laugh. I love funny. Just because I love funny, it isn’t necessarily good.
Whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report….
Think on THESE things.
The things that I am taking into my mind and heart… are they pure and lovely?
What am I doing with the precious time that I am given?
What is truly important?
I know it doesn’t mean that I can have no fun and only watch the church channel. I just know that I must be mindful and walking in the Spirit. If I am doing that, I believe He will make me mindful of the correct balance I need as a child of His and a mom to them.
I know God wants more of my time. He wants me in the Word. He wants to spend time with me. I know I need to make that a priority.
I know that I need to make sure my job here at home is important. I need to concentrate on that, especially with the Christmas season upon us.
I know that God has called me to write. I have said that for many years. So, I am going to concentrate this month on doing more writing.
I am going to concentrate on the important things.
So, I am sorry Farmville and Words With Friends friends. My kids may answer my requests and keep my little farm alive, but I am going to take a month off.
Christmas is coming, and the next month will be busy. I am pretty sure that I won’t be bored!