I have been thinking about the resolutions that I made when facing 2012. At first thought I began the process of beating myself up for my complete and total failure.
I still sit here fat chick who did not read through the Bible this year. My house is far from perfect, and my family did eat out way more that I wanted us to this year.
But, then I went back and read the LIST.
1. Be a better follower of Christ
2. Be a better wife and mother
3. Be a healthier and better me
January 1, 2012 – that was my list. I then proceeded to elaborate on each item about how I thought I would accomplish each item. That is me, always in control of how God is going to accomplish things in my life.
When I rethink the actual list, I realize that God has truly accomplished these things in my life.
I have not read through my Bible from start to finish this year, and it would be a great thing for me to do. However, I have spent more time with God and in my Bible this year that ever before. He has truly shown me “great and mighty things.” He has broken my heart for the lost. He has changed me.
I have not cooked every meal from scratch and my house is not a perfectly organized show home. However, our home is a different place than it was a year ago. God has changed so much in our lives. I would have never thought at this time last year that I would not be working now. He has made me available to be the mom and wife that I have needed to be.
I am still not a size eight, and I have not run a marathon this year. However, overall, I am in a healthier state than last year. I only weigh 5 pounds less than I did on January first of last year. So, in the realm of numbers, I am a failure. However, I am off all my blood pressure medication, and if I remember to take all my herbs and vitamins, I can keep my BP at the same numbers it is on medication. Since quitting my BP medication, I have not had a single kidney infection! I gave up caffeine in August, and I know that makes me a healthier me! I am not as edgy or jumpy. People say I seem much calmer. So, I guess #3 is accomplished as well.
I love that God has accomplished the “However”s in ways that I would not have considered. I love that His ways are so much better than my ways.
Looking at 2013, I think my list will be the same. I am not going to elaborate on the ways that I intend to accomplish them. I have learned my lesson. I know He can accomplish way more than I can ever imagine!