Ministry is tough work. We aren’t doing anything that extraordinary or that special. We are just trying to love people. We are just trying to help. We have helped the people God has brought us.
Today I struggle yet again with the ministry. I love control, and darnit, things are beyond my control! I can’t control how many people that God leads into our doors at church. I can’t control people’s thankfulness or lack thereof. I can’t control people’s behavior. I can’t control this ministry.
I get so frustrated when we help and help and then watch the same behaviors creep up. They fall prey once again to the addictions. They fall prey to the devil and his devices. I watch people we invest in give it all up yet again.
Yet, it isn’t our ministry. It is HIS. It isn’t our time that we are investing. It is HIS. Really this is no different than what I was blogging about yesterday. Sure, yesterday was about money that wasn’t mine to begin with, but today it is time that isn’t mine either.
Aren’t we supposed to just GO? We go without promise of a favorable result. We do without promise of an expected outcome. We give without caring about a person’s thankfulness. We are just to give.
Give.
Give my time.
Give my resources.
Give my heart.
Give my desires.
Give my need to control.
My ways are not His ways, and His plan is so much bigger than mine.
and the exciting thing… I get to be here to watch!
Tancy, I for sure have to agree, even though you do so much more and so much in the Ministry, where do you find not only the time, but the strength, I mean I know it is through God that gives you the strength, but “WOW” you do so much, I try to do what I can do, mainly from being so busy and dedicated to the new baby and Bubba and the Company. Then yes, comes the heartache part with you invest so much time and love into someone and yet you get slammed down, and hard, then you wonder how in the earth can you just pick up and do it again, sometimes you just are so afraid that you are going to get a heartache again and slammed down again, but yet you know the Lord is telling you and helping you to pick yourself up and do it again, just some thoughts, I love your blogs, it helps.
God bless you for all you do. Many people, whether they acknowledge it or not, whether they realize it or not, have been loved, feed, understood, hugged, etc. because of wonderful people like you. Atleast at that part of their life they have had some consistency, some stablity, which may have been the most they have ever been given. It is your heart God see’s and not the outcome. Keep up the great work…. from someone you have never met but admires what you give of yourself. I also prayed for your lawn mower!