Tancy Talks

I am so thankful that whatever seems to be going on with me does not seem to be too serious. It is more of an annoying kind of thing, and not  a life threatening thing. They have ruled out tumors and liver disease.  It has just disrupted my life, and it very irritating.  I have so much that I SHOULD be doing, and it is hard to do when I am sick.

I have learned a few things…

1.  My favorite saltines are Zesta.

2.  I like Diet 7Up more than Diet Sprite, but I do like Diet Sierra Mist a lot.

3.  No matter what kind of clear soda it is, I like it much more when it is slightly flat.

4. Laying in bed makes my back hurt, plus it is boring.

5.  I thought I liked the idea of the house being quiet and being alone, but truly it is only nice for a little while.  Then it gets boring.

6. My kids are loud. Even when they are trying to be quiet.

7. I am really not good at being bored.

8.  I am a control freak. I hate not KNOWING what is going on.  Because, I obviously think that if I KNOW what is going on I can fix it.

9. I forgot how much fun snail mail is.  A dear friend has sent me two actual get well cards.  They lifted my day.

10.  I have so many praying friends.  I am humbled. I know that the Great Physician is listening to our requests.

 

I am feeling much better this afternoon after a visit with the Doctor’s Office this morning.

First – Thank you to Bill who took care of JP’s other obligation so he could be a good boy and go to the doctor.

Second – Thank you to all of you who have been praying about his situation.

It seems that most of his issues should be able to be remedied with healthy habits.  This means he has to get out of that office chair and out of that white van (While driving everyone about) and get moving.  I promise to not cook with AS MUCH butter too.  I know it will help all of us 🙂

He is still having these “flutters” in his chest, but he is NOT having a heart attack and there is NO damage happening.  They are going to have him wear a heart monitor for 48 hours to see if they can catch the flutter in progress and maybe figure out what is causing it.

(My guess is stress)

So, all in all, a great appointment. He has been stuck with enough needles to know that all is perfectly normal… well, he is as normal as blood work can tell you 🙂

A little more waiting, but it seems all is going well.

 

I find myself just silly sometimes.  I have been a tad (HA!) worried about JP and his health issues as of late.  Every time he breathes funny or stops short of what I think he should be doing, I am asking him what is wrong.

He is having these issues, and I really pray that they can find an answer.  Recently they told him they thought there was some problems, and they did more blood work.  Then, they called him to tell him, that he was not diabetic, but they would not discuss the rest of the results until he was in the office.  THEN, he can’t get into an appointment.  THEN, he moves them, or thinks that they are not really THAT important. I have been ready to shoot him myself!

So, I sit here this morning waiting. WAITING.  I keep trying to remember that I am not in control.  I remember that His plan is greater than mine.  I remember that I am to be “Anxious for nothing.”  I remember that I know His will is perfect.

How come it is so hard to let that sink deep into my soul?  I know these things, and yet I do not have that overwhelming peace sweep over my spirit?

Oh Lord, please give me that peace.

Wonderful Peace

Far away in the depths of my spirit tonight
Rolls a melody sweeter than psalm;
In celestial strains it unceasingly falls
O’er my soul like an infinite calm.

Refrain

Peace, peace, wonderful peace,
Coming down from the Father above!
Sweep over my spirit forever, I pray
In fathomless billows of love!

What a treasure I have in this wonderful peace,
Buried deep in the heart of my soul,
So secure that no power can mine it away,
While the years of eternity roll!

Refrain

I am resting tonight in this wonderful peace,
Resting sweetly in Jesus’ control;
For I’m kept from all danger by night and by day,
And His glory is flooding my soul!

Refrain

And I think when I rise to that city of peace,
Where the Anchor of peace I shall see,
That one strain of the song which the ransomed will sing
In that heavenly kingdom will be:

Refrain

Ah, soul! are you here without comfort and rest,
Marching down the rough pathway of time?
Make Jesus your Friend ere the shadows grow dark;
O accept of this peace so sublime!

So instead of messing with resolutions and all that stuff I learned my lesson about last year, I have decided that I would set monthly project goals.  I am a person who love lists and loves projects to accomplish.

1. Doors – all painted and hung.  This requires my father and he is going to be thrilled that I am setting up a time line. Ha ha.

2. Basement – Always the bane of my existence.  Finish what I started last year.  GET IT ALL DONE.

3. Run 60 miles.

4. Have  3 families over for dinner.

5. Our Room – change it from the household dumping ground to a retreat.

We shall see what this girl can do!  I have lots to do, and a end point in sight.  I like a challenge!

I have been thinking about the resolutions that I made when facing  2012.  At  first thought I began the process of beating myself up for my complete and total failure.

I still sit here fat chick who did not read through the Bible this year.  My house is far from perfect, and my family did eat out way more that I wanted us to this year.

But, then I went back and read the LIST.

1. Be a better follower of Christ
2. Be a better wife and mother
3. Be a healthier and better me

January 1, 2012 – that was my list.  I then proceeded to elaborate on each item about how I thought I would accomplish each item.  That is me, always in control of how God is going to accomplish things in my life.

When I rethink the actual list, I realize that God has truly accomplished these things in my life.

I have not read through my Bible from start to finish this year, and it would be a great thing for me to do. However, I have spent more time with God and in my Bible this year that ever before.  He has truly shown me “great and mighty things.”  He has broken my heart for the lost.  He has changed me.

I have not cooked every meal from scratch and my house is not a perfectly organized show home. However, our home is a different place than it was a year ago.  God has changed so much in our lives.  I would have never thought at this time last year that I would not be working now.   He has made me available to be the mom and wife that I have needed to be.

I am still not a size eight, and I have not run a marathon this year.  However, overall, I am in a healthier state than last year.  I only weigh 5 pounds less than I did on January first of last year.   So, in the realm of numbers, I am a failure.  However, I am off all my blood pressure medication, and if I remember to take all my herbs and vitamins, I can keep my BP at the same numbers it is on medication.  Since quitting my BP medication, I have not had a single kidney infection!  I gave up caffeine in August, and I know that makes me a healthier me! I am not as edgy or jumpy.  People say I seem much calmer. So, I guess #3 is accomplished as well.

I love that God has accomplished the “However”s in ways that I would not have considered.  I love that His ways are so much better than my ways.

Looking at 2013, I think my list will be the same.  I am not going to elaborate on the ways that I intend to accomplish them.  I have learned my lesson. I know He can accomplish way more than I can ever imagine!