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Married white female seeking….

I keep seeking…

                    Assurance. 

                         Peace.

                              Direction.

                                    Answers. 

I have begged for His will to be revealed to me, and His peace to wash over me.

And along my path, I see tiny snippets that remind me. God can send you a message through the LITTLE things!  Friends sending a quick message of encouragement.  A picture that speaks to your heart.  Scripture – not a little thing – whispers nuggets of truth into my heart.

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No this is not scripture, but was meant for ME today!

Scripture for my needy heart that He gave me.

Isaiah 43

(AC)“Remember not the former things,
nor consider the things of old.
19 (AD)Behold, I am doing a new thing;
    now it springs forth, do you not perceive it?
(AE)I will make a way in the wilderness
(AF)and rivers in the desert.

Isaiah 41

(A)Listen to me in silence, (B)O coastlands;
let the peoples renew their strength;
let them approach, then let them speak;
let us together draw near for judgment.

2 (C)Who stirred up one from the east
whom victory meets at every (D)step?[a]
(E)He gives up nations before him,
so that he tramples kings underfoot;
he makes them like dust with his sword,
(F)like driven stubble with his bow.
3 He pursues them and passes on safely,
by paths his feet have not trod.
4 (G)Who has performed and done this,
calling the generations from the beginning?
(H)I, the Lord, the first,
and with the last; I am he.

5 (I)The coastlands have seen and are afraid;
the ends of the earth tremble;
they have drawn near and come.
6 Everyone helps his neighbor
and says to his brother, “Be strong!”
7 (J)The craftsman strengthens the goldsmith,
and he who smooths with the hammer him who strikes the anvil,
saying of the soldering, “It is good”;
and they strengthen it with nails (K)so that it cannot be moved.

8 But you, Israel, (L)my servant,
Jacob, (M)whom I have chosen,
the offspring of Abraham, (N)my friend;
9 you whom I took from the ends of the earth,
and called (O)from its farthest corners,
saying to you, “You are (P)my servant,
(Q)I have chosen you and not cast you off”;
10 fear not, for I am with you;
be not dismayed, for I am your God;
I will strengthen you, I will help you,
    I will uphold you with (R)my righteous right hand.

Job 23:10

10 But he (H)knows (I)the way that I (J)take;
when he has (K)tried me, I shall come out as gold.

Philippians 4

4 (G)Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice. 5 Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. (H)The Lord is at hand; 6 (I)do not be anxious about anything, (J)but in everything by prayer and supplication (K)with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. 7 And (L)the peace of God, (M)which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

12 I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and(S)hunger, abundance and (T)need. 13 I can do all things (U)through him who strengthens me.

Psalm 28

7 The Lord is my strength and (A)my shield;
in him my heart (B)trusts, and I am helped;
my heart exults,
and with my (C)song I give thanks to him

~so many times I think of His strength, but I forget his my SHIELD.  My PROTECTION from the fiery darts that Satan hurls my way!

 

Another gentle reminder from a silly thing called Pinterest.  God even uses the silly things!

 

Wonderful Peace

I have been praying for peace and wisdom.  We have a tough decision to make.  I consider it a major life decision.  Pivotal, even.

I have been seeking His will, and in many ways have felt a pulling one direction. I have been AFRAID of that direction.  It SCARES me.  It is full of questions.  It is full of NEW. It is SCARY!

I woke up with this in my heart this morning, and since I have been met with so many other reminders of where my hope and peace lies.  We serve an amazing God who gives us amazing answers. He put a song in my heart to calm my tattered nerves

Wonderful Peace

Far away in the depths of my spirit tonight
Rolls a melody sweeter than psalm;
In celestial strains it unceasingly falls
O’er my soul like an infinite calm.

Refrain

Peace, peace, wonderful peace,
Coming down from the Father above!
Sweep over my spirit forever, I pray
In fathomless billows of love!

What a treasure I have in this wonderful peace,
Buried deep in the heart of my soul,
So secure that no power can mine it away,
While the years of eternity roll!

Refrain

I am resting tonight in this wonderful peace,
Resting sweetly in Jesus’ control;
For I’m kept from all danger by night and by day,
And His glory is flooding my soul!

Refrain

And I think when I rise to that city of peace,
Where the Anchor of peace I shall see,
That one strain of the song which the ransomed will sing
In that heavenly kingdom will be:

Refrain

Dead stuff everywhere.

One of the reasons I love to go for a run is that I have that time ALONE.  I am alone in my thoughts and I can process my day.  I also LOVE to pray when I run.  God and I have some of the most wonderful chats when I am running.  We get so many things worked out 🙂

Yesterday while I was running, I kept seeing sad little dead things on the road.  Black birds, sparrows, starlings, a possum, toads, countless worms that thought they were crawling to a non-drowning safety on the asphalt.  I was reminded of the fact that my amazing God knows each one of these creatures have met their demise.

Matthew 10:29 “Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father.”

My first thought was that I was just looking for things… those are common occurrences in nature.  Quit looking for something in nothing.

Not one minute later, I say a beautiful, blue hummingbird dead on the side of the road (Which is NOT common), and I knew that it was no mistake.

At first when I was contemplating the message God had for me, I was thinking that He sees the sparrow and He cares.  He knows.

Now, when looking at the verse in Matthew, I see it in a whole new light.

http://bible.cc/matthew/10-29.htm

It isn’t just that He knows, it is His will.

It isn’t just a knowledge.  His will is being carried out day by day throughout all of His creation.

And, here sits Tancy.   So sure of herself as she plods through her days — doing things her way.  Sure, when things get tough, I turn for help when I can’t make things work out MY way.  He made me a strong individual, so surely he wants to to work things out myself.  Right??

His will.

I don’t need to worry, because He has got it all worked out.

Who am I to think I need to figure out anything on my own when I have the One who is making all the decisions as my guide?

pride…

Help me to remember who the boss really is.  Thank You Lord.

 

SURPRISE – if you ruin it…. I will be most unhappy.

I have hesitated to write about our big surprise because I want there to be no chance that it may get ruined.  I just have to get it out, so I am giving it a whirl. Soon to be teenager will not  get his facebook going until after the trip, so I think I will be in the clear.  AND ANYONE WHO READS THIS WILL KEEP THEIR MOUTHS SHUT  🙂  Right ?!?!?

We are going on a trip.  We have been anticipating this trip for months.  We wanted to go last year, but it just wasn’t happening, so we planned for this year. We want to head east and see battlefields — Lots and lots of battlefields and Civil war memorabilia. I know, I know, some of you (Julie) are rolling your eyes and muttering “What nerds” under you breath, but nerds we are.  Besides the fact that history is cool, I  want to pass that knowledge and love of knowledge to our children.  I want them to see how we got here as a nation, and not just read about it every other year in US history.

During tax season, I started hassling my mom about getting a time share booked.  (We are going with my parents, and they own a time share.  YEAH!)  Life simply was too crazy, and no time share reservations were made.  Tax season ended; mom and dad went on their own vacation. No time share reservations were made.  My mom finally called, and the closest place we could stay was in Baltimore.  It was farther than we wanted (Hershey, PA) but we could make it work.  Now to pick a week… more waiting.

I was beginning to think we were never going to get to go.  I was preparing to let our kids down once again, and my mom came up with an idea.  Now, if you know my mom, you know her ideas.  You just NEVER KNOW what she may come up, but she almost always pulls it off.

A week ago, they pop over to help me with a project, and when we are working alone she asks me, “How much money are you planning on spending to go to Pennsylvania?”  I tell her how much we were saving, and that we were planning on cooking in the rental, and saving as much money as we could, blah, blah, blah…   Well, she looks at me and says, “So, if we gave you $X more money, what would you think about going to Orlando in two weeks? It will be my 60th birthday, and what greater way to spend it than with my family?”

JAW DROP.

Orlando? Disney World?  Florida?  The vacation that we feared we could never take?

I mentioned it to JP, wondering what he would say, and he was pretty tickled too.  Every kid dreams of going to Florida, and our kids are the perfect age for this adventure.   The only trick was figuring out if he could get his ducks in a row for jobs and churches in that short of a time.  He made it work, and we are GOING!!!!

Now the surprise… Our kids think we are going to Pennsylvania.   They are so excited, and can’t wait to see it all.  The other day, we sat and colored US maps with states that each member of our family has been to.  We are going to take the maps with us in the car, and color in the states as we go, all the way to “Pennsylvania.”

There is a pool being formed, and your guesses of which child, and approximately when and where they will discover that we are headed the wrong way will be due before we leave 🙂