My heart hurts today. Honestly, that is about all that is on my mind. My heart just hurts.
I find it so crazy that just yesterday God was working on me about loving people and within a few short hours I am faced with an opportunity to put this faith into action. Loving someone like Jesus means I have to love them through all their faults AND no matter how much I am hurting.
Yesterday was a day of roller coaster emotions. We had a long day in court with mixed emotions. I came home to find my dear friend had worked hard in my house just to help me! I am so thankful for my dear friend. I thank God for my dear friend. We then went to the Rescue Mission which is such a spiritual shot in the arm. There is JOY in serving Jesus! We had dinner with dear friends and then I came home and had an incredible time of personal worship. Then, turmoil. I went to bed full of love, joy, confusion, hurt, and tension.
But I KNOW.
God was still God throughout EVERY moment of my day yesterday. Every single moment. My God is sovereign and sits on His throne when my heart is heavy and my mind is jumbled, and God is sovereign and sits on His throne when I am at ease.
He wants me to have peace. He wants me to obey and trust that He is in control. He has got this. He has every little trouble running through my mind. He knows the result that I am already worrying about, and that is wrong! Oh Lord, help me remember you are in control!
I need to be leave it in His hands because He has the answer.