I seem to always stay busy.
And, yes, Julie, I almost heard you choke when you read that statement. I know, it is a slight understatement, but I am TRYING to be honest 🙂
So, I am always busy. Yes, I know I need to learn to say no more, and I am really trying to put it in to practice more often. I am trying to put the things into perspective and be more selective while setting my priorities.
I have been thinking about this all summer. It took me a few weeks to recover from the spring semester. I was teaching full time, going to school, and doing two extra side jobs. We also have that whole church planting thing. Plus, the mom thing, and the wife thing….
I hate the fact that all those other things consume my life. I hate that the “mom” and “wife” thing gets pushed all the way to the end of the list. Isn’t that supposed to be my FIRST priority? I have so enjoyed my time at home this summer. I am finding that I am ready for some structure, but I am not ready for the consumption.
I am really struggling to find the balance. I want to find the balance. I NEED to find the balance. I want to have time to cook dinner that we have time to eat at the table together. I want to have fresh baked cookies for my kids. I want to have time to sit and listen to them read. I want to teach them to play the piano, and not only other people’s kids. I want to just sit and enjoy them. They are growing up WAY to fast.
My baby is going to kindergarten this year. Our girls are NOT little girls anymore, and we are soon to have a teenager.
I don’t want to regret not spending enough time with them.
I don’t want to wish I had done more.
When we turn around and wonder where the years went, I want my heart to be full of memories. I want their hearts to be full too.
The question…How do I do it all and keep my house and home? How do I do it all while working my job? How do I do it all as a pastor’s wife? How do I do it all with all the other responsibilities? How?
How? Someone tell me please?!?!?
Someone have a magic potion?
If you find the answer, let me know! I don’t do near as much as you do and I feel the exact same way, and don’t get me started on the guilt about putting my baby in preschool so I can work a bit more!